Love

Everyone has heard of this thing called Love but who really knows what it means? We are told that we will find someone special and we will get married and have an amazing life. What people don't tell you is all the hurt and pain that comes with being in love. Love isn't a happy thing all the time, It comes with pain and hurt also. It isn't something that just comes into your life and you don't have to work at it. Just because you are in a relationship doesnt mean everything is just going to be happy all the time. Its hard work and requires both sides to come together and compramize. Love is the foundation of a good relationship, but it has to be on both sides not just one. If your going to be in a relationship make sure your not the only one giving.

Writing

Whenever I'm upset or in a bad mood i write stuff down. Like what im feeling or poems that go with what I'm feeling. Some of the people i hang out with are very judgmental and just full of themselves, which i don't like at all. I hate being surrounded by negative people it puts me into a bad mood almost instantly. People that are around me try to tell me what i do wrong and how i should basically be just like them. These kind of statements are most of the reasons why im in bad moods and get upset. I hate it when people tell me to be like them or be something im not, it just makes me feel like I'm not good enough for them the way i am so they want me to be like them. That is something i just cant do, something i wont do, I cant be anybody but me and i dont intend on being anybody else. God made me this way for a reason and it wasn't to be like you, he made me so that I could do something the way I am not to be like someone else. I was made to do something just as you were made to do something too, he made me to do something different than what he made you for. Just because I am close to you and maybe like you doesn't me I should be you, it should mean that i look to you for guidance and come to you with problems, not that I/you should be morphing myself into you. Then if all of this wasnt enough you arnt even what your trying to turn me into, it is who you were not who you are and that isn't what i want to be at all.

Im sorry for anyone who is reading this and confused or upset at what iv said. This was ment tords one person and that person only...................

Oldies

I have had so much music influance my life over the years, but my dad is the one how gave me some of the best songs that i will probably listen to forever. Def leppords :Two steps behind:, Motley Crues :Home Sweet Home:, Alot of the Goo Goo Dolls, Black Crows :She talks to Angels:, Counting Crows :Big Yellow Taxi:, and also the song Walking In Memphis. These songs are amazing songs and have always ever since i was little made me in such a good mood. Songs of this nature have been cast aside for songs that talk only about sex, drugs, and how much money they have. More artist need to sing about something meaningfull instead of what they know will sell records. I think if more artist need to make more meaningfull songs and maybe the world will get it. That its doesnt have to be all about sex and money, it can be about love, happyness, or heartbrake without cursing. It would help alot of the misfits be on the right path.

Music

Music is a big part of my life. I have found a way to get away from reality and that is through music. Its amazing how one song can take you from hating the world to not being able to stop smiling :) My sister and me, when my parents were fighting or not there or whenever we were in a bad mood we alway found a song for eachother. To get away from the world and just relax. It was more of my sister that gave me music that effects my life. She always found a way to help with whatever i was going through. We bounded alot, mostly when i had a day or something went wrong she would take me into her to her room and she would put on a cd and i would cry, yell, and just get everything out to her. Now that im older i don't really go to her as much but i always have connected the music i listen to to my emotions. If you look through my song selection you will probably find songs that are really weird and probably some that you may know, but all of them are there for a reason. Its cuz it helps me get through pain and sarrow instead of being depressed or becoming a very angree person it just calms me down. Music is a very big part of my life and probably always will be.

Pastor Mike Lema

"your my hero, Cuz even tho you have lost alot of friends even your own brother you still keep trying." These were the last words my youth pastor (Mike Lema or PM) said to me before he left (pastoring to another town). This statement brought me to tears as he hug me and said them. I was so overwelmed by the fact that MY hero, the one i looked up to, was now telling me that i was HIS hero. I can't explain the amount of joy i felt in that moment, it was pure happyness. That whole night i was just thinking about that statement and just couldn't help but be naturally confused. I didnt understand how me, a kid who messed up so many times and was such a bad person, could be this amazing man of God's hero. I can't stress enough how much this statement had just overwhelmed me and made me think about my life and were it is heading. About what kind of man of God i really wanted to be. I don't want him to ever be disapointed in me, or take back that statement. So after all of this i made my self a promiss that i would do the best i can to make that statement true. PM saved my life; if i wouldn't have met him and actually started listening to God i would be so much different than i am now. I would either be dead or in alot of trouble with the law. Mike Lema is MY hero...and will alway be my hero :) He saved my life and gave me a new one.

Tear Drops of love

When your in love you feel like nothing can touch you...like your on top of the world. That person can make you feel like you are hovering over the earth; but they can also make you feel really low. The one you love can make you feel like you are in the center of the earth and everybody else is walking on top of you. If its momentary then just work through it...but if they make you feel low and sad more then happy and in love then its time for the relationship to end. If you cry more than you laugh with them its time to end it. im not trying to tell everybody to brake up with there "other half" im just saying that if the tear drops of love are to great you can drown yourself.

Keep Trying To Get It Right

The name of the blog says it all. I am just trying to get it right, The "It" im talking about is living for God. Also to be a good christan and not only learning how but sharing the wisdom i have and will aquire with others who either dont know God or just dont put it into practice. I dont clam to have it all figured out or to be the perfect person. I do try as hard as i can to get it right. Try to set an example for younger children and anybody who comes in contact with me, but like everybody i fall short, But i try. This is alittle preview of some of the things i will be writing about and alittle about the way i am.